Fore!
I got up today and desperately wanted to go golfing. Unfortunately, I couldn't go golfing because I quit three years ago as a protest against the negative environmental impact golf courses have. Yet, I was so close to picking up the phone and finding a tee time somewhere.
I miss those days, when I would get up on a lazy weekend morning and spontaneously go golfing. Remembering that sweet ping when you connect perfectly with the ball under the warmth of the hot sun. Or how about that accurately placed approach shot which leaves the ball close enough for an eagle putt. And sometimes it was just about the small victories like a chip from the bunker that doesn't have you covered with sand. I entertained the idea for quite some time, thinking 'just one game, how could that hurt' and spent a couple hours searching on the internet for some study or article detailing how golf courses are perfectly harmless.
It's disappointing that I am willing sacrifice my beliefs for personal gain. It's even more disappointing that I can't automatically stick to my value system, that first an internal struggle against temptation must take place. And most disappointing of all, is that I, a person that's as self righteous as anybody else, has often times been weak and forgone my convictions. Today was victorious and I stayed home; my character of tomorrow is still questionable.
I miss those days, when I would get up on a lazy weekend morning and spontaneously go golfing. Remembering that sweet ping when you connect perfectly with the ball under the warmth of the hot sun. Or how about that accurately placed approach shot which leaves the ball close enough for an eagle putt. And sometimes it was just about the small victories like a chip from the bunker that doesn't have you covered with sand. I entertained the idea for quite some time, thinking 'just one game, how could that hurt' and spent a couple hours searching on the internet for some study or article detailing how golf courses are perfectly harmless.
It's disappointing that I am willing sacrifice my beliefs for personal gain. It's even more disappointing that I can't automatically stick to my value system, that first an internal struggle against temptation must take place. And most disappointing of all, is that I, a person that's as self righteous as anybody else, has often times been weak and forgone my convictions. Today was victorious and I stayed home; my character of tomorrow is still questionable.