Random ponderings

Things were amiss when I got up this morning. Yet, I managed to drag myself to the gym. After the usual warm up I jumped on the rowing machine and froze, completely unmotivated. But rather than engage in an internal speech of self motivation my mind wandered elsewhere. Here's what I thought about for 10 minutes.

1. Why doesn't God offer his services as an interior designer? After searching for months for a way to decorate my empty apartment I have noticed that nothing man made compares to the awe and comfort of nature's design. The perfect mixture of shades in a sunset, the subtle placement and striking color of a person's eyes, the seamless blend of trees, mountains, and rivers. Even the finest decorated homes can't compare.

2. This sweet woman in her nineties tells me often about the shows she watches on television. She lives alone and is recovering from knee replacement surgery. Maybe television isn't bad after all if it helps someone fill lonely space?

3. Tennis. I always think about tennis; technique, strategy, fitness, goals. There are some places I belong and others I don't, and I haven't quite figured out which is which. But when I am on the tennis court I'm never in doubt that I am in the right place.

4. Rogue was so playful this morning before I left. That's the best, when she gets all excited and does crazy somersaults while attacking her little stuffed bear. I wish her energy had rubbed off on me. Damn I love that munchkin.

5. Should I buy a house? Should I buy a couch? Should I buy a TV? Should I buy a couch and a TV before or after buying a house? Should I just exist in limbo for my remaining years?

Accepting reality, I left without breaking a sweat and started the work day. Guess it wasn't a good day for a work out.